Where do we go from here
Think of that very first day.
The love and all,
The assurances, the optimism
The very line that lit your face
The never ending days that love would lead.
Think about how we dreamed that those days could be forever.
We were not afraid, we were in love and nothing else mattered.
Could we have been wrong when we turned off our phones, just you and i, keeping the world away from us?
Yes, we were right! We couldn't be judged and even if it happened, our bond was bold and never shaken.
Oh those beautiful days.
Those memorable times
That silence we never questioned.
Oh how these have gone by, with no chance at redemption.
I came by to drop the kids at McDonald
I made it as quick, just to get away
Away from the life we had
Away from you and I
Away from us.
I couldn't pretend to say hi, everyone saw my weakness. Not that "I still love you" kind of weakness. The weakness and shame of the woman who couldn't be her children's hero.
I do not feel sorry for me because i know you suffer the same.
We failed at our vows
Our ego won
...but never imagined failing the kids.
I must now unnaturally love our children as I compete to Buy the best gifts, atleast to seem better than you. Yes, I know but it is just who I am, and maybe everyone else like me - every broken woman.
I cry but never coming back
I live but never the same
Our best is what we lost
We must now make everything special with whoever we find and tell them they are the best we ever had, doing all that we were too proud to do for ourselves, just to make them stay as we wean ourselves off of the guilt of the chance we lost.
I am meeting my friend now and she should never read this admission - my friends and i are feminists, we both believe I was right and this lie will never end. I wonder what your friends think. Are they feminists too? Do they also think our parents were old fashion and stupid? I hope they know the truth we wished someone told us or they can just be like us, grow our numbers, and make it seem like the ideal life. Where do we go from here😥
The love and all,
The assurances, the optimism
The very line that lit your face
The never ending days that love would lead.
Think about how we dreamed that those days could be forever.
We were not afraid, we were in love and nothing else mattered.
Could we have been wrong when we turned off our phones, just you and i, keeping the world away from us?
Yes, we were right! We couldn't be judged and even if it happened, our bond was bold and never shaken.
Oh those beautiful days.
Those memorable times
That silence we never questioned.
Oh how these have gone by, with no chance at redemption.
I came by to drop the kids at McDonald
I made it as quick, just to get away
Away from the life we had
Away from you and I
Away from us.
I couldn't pretend to say hi, everyone saw my weakness. Not that "I still love you" kind of weakness. The weakness and shame of the woman who couldn't be her children's hero.
I do not feel sorry for me because i know you suffer the same.
We failed at our vows
Our ego won
...but never imagined failing the kids.
I must now unnaturally love our children as I compete to Buy the best gifts, atleast to seem better than you. Yes, I know but it is just who I am, and maybe everyone else like me - every broken woman.
I cry but never coming back
I live but never the same
Our best is what we lost
We must now make everything special with whoever we find and tell them they are the best we ever had, doing all that we were too proud to do for ourselves, just to make them stay as we wean ourselves off of the guilt of the chance we lost.
I am meeting my friend now and she should never read this admission - my friends and i are feminists, we both believe I was right and this lie will never end. I wonder what your friends think. Are they feminists too? Do they also think our parents were old fashion and stupid? I hope they know the truth we wished someone told us or they can just be like us, grow our numbers, and make it seem like the ideal life. Where do we go from here😥
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